i woe this today at the sommaravslutning

THE BIG DAY IS FINALLY HERE THAT LITTLE SPARK OF HOPE IS GONE IM LOST AND I CAN´T FIND MY WAY OUT I CAN´T LIVE WITHOUT YOU ITS NOT POSSIBLE I JUST CAN´T LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU DON´T EXIST ITS NOT IMAGINEABLE

the horrifying day has passed i have never felt so empty there is no words for how im feeling right now

I HOPE THAT I WILL REACH YOU WITH THESE WORDS I HOPE THAT THESE WORDS ARE ENOUGH TO EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU SHIT NOW YOU MADE ME CRY THERE IS NO WORDS FOR MY FEELINGS FOR YOU THERE IS NO WORDS .......... TEARS ..................... THE FIRST TIME I CAUGHT YOUR YEYS IT WAS LOVE ALREADY THEN IN THE BEGINNING YOU WERE CAREFUL WITH YOUR FEELINGS FOR ME BUT SLOWLY I HAD PATIENCE WITH YOU AND SLOWLY SLOWLY YOU CAME TO ME YOU WALKED INTO MY HEART YOU LOVED ME AND I LOVED YOU BUT HTEN SOMETHING HAPPENED ONE DAY YOU KICKED ME ON MY LEG AND THE MAGIC WAS BROKEN MY PRIDE WAS HURT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD HURT ME THEN YOU SAID YOU WERE SORRY BOUT IT BUT THAT KICK ON MY LEG IT DID HURT THAT KICK ON MY LEG IS STILL THERE TODAY I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY BUT SLOWLY YOU CAME BACK TO ME AND I FORGAVE YOU BUT SUDDENLY THERE IT WAS AGAIN YOU WERE SO ANGRY AND SAD THAT NIGHT I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP AND THE NEXT FOLLOWING WEEKS I WAS TRYING TO INVESTIGATE BOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU FROM THE FIRST SIGHT I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEPRESSED BUT YOU WASN´T WHERE HAD THAT PRINCE IN MY WORLD GONE THAT LOVE OF MY LIFE IT WAS GONE JUST GONE WITH THE WIND YOU DID´NT SMILE AT ME YOU DIDN´T LOOKED AT ME YOU DIDN´T SPEAK TO ME AS YOU HAD NEVER KNEW ME SHIT THAT HURT I WAS ALONE YOU DIDN´T EVEN SPEAKED TO ME I COULD´NT BELIEVE IT I COULD´NT BELIEVE IT IT WAS NOT TRUE BUT THEN ONE DAY YOU CHANGED AND CAME BACK TO ME AND THEN ALEXANDRA THIS TIME IT WAS MY TURN TO BE DEPRESSED YOU DID´NT EVEN PROTECTED ME FROM HER AS I THOUGHT YOU WOULD AND I HAD TO CLIMB UP THE WALL MYSELF I DIDN´T TOLD ANYONE BOUT YOU AND ME I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT BELIEVE ME I HAVE NOT TOLD ANYONE I CAN´T EXPLAIN HOW THE HELL THEY NOW EVERYTHING BOUT US BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND I WILL KEEP FIGHTING FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU´RE GONE I WILL NEVER STOP FIGHTING FOR YOU NEVER AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN POSSIBLY CHANGE THAT BUT WE JUST CANT STOP SEEING EACH OTHER WITH SO MUCH TIME TOGHETHER WE JUST CANT WE CAN AT LEAST MEET ONE OR TWICE A WEEK ITS NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR SO TOMORROW IT´S OUER LAST DAY TOGETHER SO AT LEAST WE CAN TRY TO MAKE THE DAY TOMORROW SOMETHING TO REMEMBER PLEASE AND I UNDERSTAND IF YOU NEVER WANT TO SEE ME AGAIN CUZ THATS WHAT YOU WANT YOU NEVER WANT TO SEE ME AGAIN YOU NEVER WANT TO SEE ME ON YOUR SPARETIME SO THIS IS THE END I LOVE YOU AND I WILL NEVER STOP FIGHTING FOR YOU I WILL KEEP FIGHTING FOR YOU TILL YOUR HEART STOPS BEATING SO NOW GOOD LUCK IN THE GYMNASIE AND WITH ALL OF MY HEART .............MORE TEARS ......... trying to calm myself down  AND WITH ALL OF MY HEART I LOVE YOU LOOK AFTER MY HEART I´VE LEFT IT WITH YOU

THE LAST DAY TOGETHER TOMORROW THE DAY I´VE TRIED TO AVOID BUT NOW IT´S HERE I CAN´T LIVE WITHOUT YOU BUT TOMORROW THAT LITTLE SPARK OF HOPE IS GONE I DON´T KNOW IF I WILL HAVE SO MUCH STRENGTH TO CONTROL MYSELF PROBABLY NOT TOMORROW IT´S TOO LATE BUT I WILL NEVER STOP FIGHTING FOR YOU I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU TILL YOUR HEART STOPS BEATING EVEN IF YOU ARE GONE I LOST MY SELFCONTROL I CANT FIGHT THIS ANYMORE  TOMORROW IS OUER LAST DAY AND TOMORROW MAY I ASK YOU SOMETHING TOMORROW KISS ME OUR LAST KISS KISS ME HOLD ME AND TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE THATS NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR BEFORE YOU LEAVE ME SO TOMORROW KISS ME KISS ME UNTIL YOU CANT KISS ANYMORE AND THEN LEAVE AND DON´T TURN AROUND TO LOOK AT ME IT WILL JUST MAKE THINGS HARDER SO TOMORROW OUER LAST KISS AND YES YOU WILL MAKE ME CRY

I LOVE YOU NOW AND FOREVER MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU LOOK AFTER MY HEART I´VE LEFT IT WITH YOU

YOU´LL BE THE ONE I´LL TURN TO WHEN MY WORLD IS FALLING APART AND IM RUNNING ON A MIRACLE THE HOPE IS RUNNING OUT IN THREE DAYS IT´S TOO LATE THE ONLY THING I CAN DO NOW IS PRAYING AND HOPING THAT MY LOVE FOR YOU REACHES YOU NOW ISN´T IT OBVIOUS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU I CAN ONLY LIVE ON THE HOPE THAT LITTLE SPARK OF HOPE THATS STILL LEFT AFTER EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE FOR YOU I THOUGHT THAT I MEANT MORE FOR YOU I THOUGHT THAT I WAS YOUR EVERYTHING CAUSE I CAN´T LIVE WITHOUT YOU YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING AND NOW..... SHIT YOU MADE ME CRY RIGHT NOW............... TEARS YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING EVERYTHING I CAN´T LIVE WITHOUT YOU ISN´T  IT OBVIOUS IM FIGHTING AGAINST THE TIME IM FIGHTING FOR YOU IM FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE EVERYDAY IS A FIGHT NOT TO BURST OUT IN TEARS WHEN YOU SMILE AT ME AND KNOWING THAT THERE IS ONLY THREE DAYS LEFT MORE TEARS ................. I CAN´T LIVE WITH THE THOUGHT IT´S JUST SOMETHING I CAN´T IMAGINE  A WORLD WITHOUT YOU ITS NOT ITS ITS...... TEARS I JUST CAN´T LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU DON´T EXIST I JUST HOPE THAT MY LOVE AND THESE WORDS ARE ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU TEARS ............. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU ENDLESS AND THERE IS NOTHING THERE CAN CHANGE THAT I LOVE YOU AND I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU TILL YOUR HEART STOPS BEATING IM CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT SCREAMING AND CRYING UNTIL I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT MORNING I WAKE UP WITH TEARS SO PLEASE DON´T WASTE ME AWAY YOU WANT ME AND I WANT YOU WE CAN´T STOP SEEING EACH OTHER JUST LIKE THAT YOU DON´T WANT TO SEE ME AFTER SCHOOL YOU NEVER WANT TO SEE ME ON YOUR SPARE TIME I LOVE YOU AND I WILL KEEP FIGHTING FOR YOU WE JUST CANT STOP SEEING EACH OTHER JUST LIKE THAT WE JUST CANT

SMOOOOKING HOT 

abercrombie and fitch in denmark

WHY WHY WHY SO MANY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS

just a few days left with you its a thought i just can´t live with i just can´t imagine how i will carry on without you it´s impossible maybe i´ll get out there and kill something you know what maybe i´ll get out there and kill myself and make it simple for you i can´t live in a world where you don´t exist

can´t imagine a world without you  if this is about my soul take it i don´t want it without you i don´t want to live without you it´s just not possible there is no words for the pain im going trough .... there is no words

I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER IM STRUGGELING IM FIGHTING ,FIGHTING FOR THE HOPE FIGHTING FOR US FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE EVERYDAY IS A FIGHT TO SEE YOU SMILE AT ME EVERYDAY AND TO KNOW THAT IN A FEW DAYS IM GOING TO LOOSE YOU THATS JUST A THOUGHT I CAN´T LIVE WITH IT´S KILLING ME IT KILLS ME IM GOING OUT THERE TO KILL SOMETHING OR MAYBE I´LL GET MYSELF KILLED AND MAKE IT SIMPLE FOR YOU BECAUSE RIGHT NOW YOU´RE BREAKING MY HEART LEAVING ME IN PIECES AND MY WORLD HAS FALLEN APART WHEN THERE IS NOTHING LEFT OF ME I DON´T WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU IT´S TO MUCH TO BEAR FOR ME I CAN´T LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU DON´T EXIST IT´S IMPOSSIBLE IF THIS IS ABOUT MY SOUL TAKE IT I DON´T WANT IT WITHOUT YOU IN A FEW DAYS I JUST CAN´T IMAGINE I JUST CAN´T ITS........ THERE ARE NO WORDS I CAN´T DESCRIBE THE FEELING IT´S LIKE THE MOST HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE WITHOUT THE WAKE UP TO REALIZE IT WAS JUST A DREAM ITS LIKE THE MOST HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE WITHOUT AN END I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IM FIGHTING EVERY SINGLE DAY FIGHTING TO SURVIVE FIGHTING FOR YOU FIGHTING FOR US EVERYDAY IS A FIGHT I MUST KEEP MYSELF TIGHT WHEN YOU SMILE AT ME OTHERWISE I WILL START CRYING AND SCREAMING AND PROBABLY YOU WILL MAKE ME CRY UNSTOPPABLE ON OUER LAST DAY IN SCHOOL TOGETHER AND I DON´T EXPECT YOU TO COME RUSHING AND TAKE ME IN YOUR ARMS KISSING MY LIPS STROKING MY HAI AND WHISPER IN MY EAR THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALLRIGHT IM GOING TO SIT THERE ALL BY MYSELF AND CRYING UNSTOPPABLE THE LAST DAY IN SCHOOL WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TO THE SAME HIGHSCHOOL THEY HAD ALREADY ACCEPTED ME BELIEVE ME OR NOT AND ONE YEAR EARLIER I HAD BEEN MAKING THE TEST AND HELENEHOLM HAD ALREADY ACCEPTED ME I WAS RIDING MISTY FOR THEM AND THEY SAID THAT I WAS ACCEPTED AND I WAS WERY WELCOME TO THE AUTUMNE AGAIN BUT THEN EVERYTHING WAS NOT AS IT SHOUL HAVE BEEN AND THAT ONLY THAT STOPPED ME FROM GOING TO THE SAME HIGHSCHOOL AS YOU AND THAT WAS ENOUGH FOR ME WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS GOING IN SCHOOL ONE MORE YEAR THEN YOU MY WORLD FELL APART I HAD BEEN SO SURE THAT YOU AND ME WERE GRADUATING TO HIGHSCHOOL IN THE SAME TIME WE WERE GOING TO BE TOGHETHER EVERYDAY BUT WHEN SOMETHING STOPPED ME AND I REALIZED THAT I WAS GOING ONE MORE YEAR IN SCHOOL MY WORLD FELL APART THAT DAY I WAS CRYING SCREAMING SWEATING SHIVERING I HAD FEVER AND MY WORLD HAD FALLEN APART AND NOW NOTHING IS AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN NOW IT´S NOTHING LEFT OF ME IM LIKE A GHOST WITHOUT YOU NOT EATING NOT DRINKING NOT RIDING NOT LIVING TO MAKE LONG WORDS SHORT I DON´T KNOW HOW LONG TIME I WILL STAY ALIVE AFTER YOU´VE LEFT ME ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY BUT I GUESS NOT VERY LONG BUT I WILL TRY FOR YOU AND ONLY FOR YOU MAY I ASK YOU SOMETHING PLEASE DON´T FORGET ME IN CASE YOU DON´T WANT US TO MEET ANYMORE AT LEAST WE COULD MEET ONCE A WEEK THATS NOT TOO MUCH TO BEG FOR IS IT ONCE A WEEK DO ME A FAVOUR COULD YOU AT LEAST THINK OF THE IDEA AND WE COULD YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING I JUST WANT TO ASK YOU IF ME CAN MEET ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK AND I ALSO WANT TO ASK YOU PLEASE JUST PROMISE ME YOU WON´T DO ANYTHING WRECKLESS I LOVE YOU IM FIGHTING FOR YOU FIGHTING FOR US EVERY SINGLE DAY AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WHATEVER HAPPENS REMEMBER ME FOREVER I LOVE YOU ENDLESS <3<3 I JUST GOT A FEW MORE DAYS WITH YOU LEFT AND I WANT US TO SPEND THESE LAST DAYS TOGETHER AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE THATS NOT TOO MUCH TO BEG FOR THESE LAST DAYS IS A HUGHE PAIN FOR ME JUST AS FOR YOU JUST REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL ENDLESS <3<3

I CANT BREATHE WITHOUT YOU IT´S IMPOSSIBLE TO KEEP FIGHTING WHEN YOU´RE GONE YOU TAKE MY BREATH AWAY IM SCARED WHEN YOU´RE NOT HERE IM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU NOTHING YOURE MY EVERYTHING IF YOU WANT MY SOUL TAKE IT I DON´T WANT IT WITHOUT YOU I CAN´T BEAR THIS ITS TOO HEAVY I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO EXCEPT YOU NO ONE MY FAMILY WOULD´NT UNDERSTAND AND I HAVE NO FRIENDS TO TALK TO THE ONLY PERSON I TRUST IS YOU H I DON´T WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU IT´S SOMETHING I JUST CAN´T IMAGINE IN THE MIDLE OF THE NIGHT I WAKE UP SCREAMING CRYING SWEATING AND THEN I CAN´T GET TO SLEEP AGAIN WHEN I KNOW YOU´RE NOT THERE HOLDING ME THIGHT KISSING ME AND TELL ME EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALLRIGHT I LOVE YOU H YOU´RE THE ONE AND ONLY FOR ME

I WILL KEEP FIGHTING FOR YOU UNTIL YOUR HEART STOPS BEATING I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WHATEVER HAPPENS

HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO KEEP FIGHTING TO STAY ALIVE WHEN THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE IS GOING TO DISSAPEAR IN A COUPLE OF DAYS HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE THAT THOUGHT IS TAKING MY BREATH AWAY I CANT BREATHE WITHOUT YOU ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO STAY ALIVE WITHOUT YOU I JUST CANT LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU DONT EXIST I CANT KEEP FIGHTING WHEN YOU´RE GONE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT IM SCREAMING AND CRYING DAD RUSHES INTO MY ROOM AND TRIES TO CALM ME DOWN BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE I WANT YOU TO PICK ME UP IN YOUR STRONG ARMS STROKE MY HAIR KISS MY LIPS AND TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK YOU KISS ME AGAIN AND WHEN IM IN YOUR ARMS IM SAFE YOUR LIPS ON MINE AND YOU WHISPER THAT YOU LOVE ME AND TELL THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU H AND I ALWAYS WILL WHATEVER HAPPENS EVERYDAY IN SCHOOL IS A PAIN FOR ME TO SEE YOU SMILE AT ME AND KNOW THAT YOU´RE GOING TO DISSAPEAR IN A COUPLE OF DAYS THATS JUST A THOUGHT I CANT LIVE WITH I CANT BEAR THAT ITS KILLING ME IT KILLS ME I CANT LIVE WITH THAT THOUGHT ITS IMPOSSIBLE I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU H AND I HOPE THAT MY LOVE REACHES YOU KNOW WHEN YOU READ THIS YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME EVERYTHING I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU ITS NOT POSSIBLE I LOVE YOU I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT H

HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO KEEP FIGHTING AND STAY ALIVE WHEN THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE IS GOING TO DISSAPEAR IN A COUPLE OF DAYS HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE