I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER IM STRUGGELING IM FIGHTING ,FIGHTING FOR THE HOPE FIGHTING FOR US FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE EVERYDAY IS A FIGHT TO SEE YOU SMILE AT ME EVERYDAY AND TO KNOW THAT IN A FEW DAYS IM GOING TO LOOSE YOU THATS JUST A THOUGHT I CAN´T LIVE WITH IT´S KILLING ME IT KILLS ME IM GOING OUT THERE TO KILL SOMETHING OR MAYBE I´LL GET MYSELF KILLED AND MAKE IT SIMPLE FOR YOU BECAUSE RIGHT NOW YOU´RE BREAKING MY HEART LEAVING ME IN PIECES AND MY WORLD HAS FALLEN APART WHEN THERE IS NOTHING LEFT OF ME I DON´T WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU IT´S TO MUCH TO BEAR FOR ME I CAN´T LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU DON´T EXIST IT´S IMPOSSIBLE IF THIS IS ABOUT MY SOUL TAKE IT I DON´T WANT IT WITHOUT YOU IN A FEW DAYS I JUST CAN´T IMAGINE I JUST CAN´T ITS........ THERE ARE NO WORDS I CAN´T DESCRIBE THE FEELING IT´S LIKE THE MOST HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE WITHOUT THE WAKE UP TO REALIZE IT WAS JUST A DREAM ITS LIKE THE MOST HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE WITHOUT AN END I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IM FIGHTING EVERY SINGLE DAY FIGHTING TO SURVIVE FIGHTING FOR YOU FIGHTING FOR US EVERYDAY IS A FIGHT I MUST KEEP MYSELF TIGHT WHEN YOU SMILE AT ME OTHERWISE I WILL START CRYING AND SCREAMING AND PROBABLY YOU WILL MAKE ME CRY UNSTOPPABLE ON OUER LAST DAY IN SCHOOL TOGETHER AND I DON´T EXPECT YOU TO COME RUSHING AND TAKE ME IN YOUR ARMS KISSING MY LIPS STROKING MY HAI AND WHISPER IN MY EAR THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALLRIGHT IM GOING TO SIT THERE ALL BY MYSELF AND CRYING UNSTOPPABLE THE LAST DAY IN SCHOOL WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TO THE SAME HIGHSCHOOL THEY HAD ALREADY ACCEPTED ME BELIEVE ME OR NOT AND ONE YEAR EARLIER I HAD BEEN MAKING THE TEST AND HELENEHOLM HAD ALREADY ACCEPTED ME I WAS RIDING MISTY FOR THEM AND THEY SAID THAT I WAS ACCEPTED AND I WAS WERY WELCOME TO THE AUTUMNE AGAIN BUT THEN EVERYTHING WAS NOT AS IT SHOUL HAVE BEEN AND THAT ONLY THAT STOPPED ME FROM GOING TO THE SAME HIGHSCHOOL AS YOU AND THAT WAS ENOUGH FOR ME WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS GOING IN SCHOOL ONE MORE YEAR THEN YOU MY WORLD FELL APART I HAD BEEN SO SURE THAT YOU AND ME WERE GRADUATING TO HIGHSCHOOL IN THE SAME TIME WE WERE GOING TO BE TOGHETHER EVERYDAY BUT WHEN SOMETHING STOPPED ME AND I REALIZED THAT I WAS GOING ONE MORE YEAR IN SCHOOL MY WORLD FELL APART THAT DAY I WAS CRYING SCREAMING SWEATING SHIVERING I HAD FEVER AND MY WORLD HAD FALLEN APART AND NOW NOTHING IS AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN NOW IT´S NOTHING LEFT OF ME IM LIKE A GHOST WITHOUT YOU NOT EATING NOT DRINKING NOT RIDING NOT LIVING TO MAKE LONG WORDS SHORT I DON´T KNOW HOW LONG TIME I WILL STAY ALIVE AFTER YOU´VE LEFT ME ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY BUT I GUESS NOT VERY LONG BUT I WILL TRY FOR YOU AND ONLY FOR YOU MAY I ASK YOU SOMETHING PLEASE DON´T FORGET ME IN CASE YOU DON´T WANT US TO MEET ANYMORE AT LEAST WE COULD MEET ONCE A WEEK THATS NOT TOO MUCH TO BEG FOR IS IT ONCE A WEEK DO ME A FAVOUR COULD YOU AT LEAST THINK OF THE IDEA AND WE COULD YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING I JUST WANT TO ASK YOU IF ME CAN MEET ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK AND I ALSO WANT TO ASK YOU PLEASE JUST PROMISE ME YOU WON´T DO ANYTHING WRECKLESS I LOVE YOU IM FIGHTING FOR YOU FIGHTING FOR US EVERY SINGLE DAY AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WHATEVER HAPPENS REMEMBER ME FOREVER I LOVE YOU ENDLESS <3<3 I JUST GOT A FEW MORE DAYS WITH YOU LEFT AND I WANT US TO SPEND THESE LAST DAYS TOGETHER AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE THATS NOT TOO MUCH TO BEG FOR THESE LAST DAYS IS A HUGHE PAIN FOR ME JUST AS FOR YOU JUST REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL ENDLESS <3<3